Latest Mercury Retrograde, Its Effect on Me and an Insight into how the Nodes work in your Birth Chart

Have you felt the effect of Mercury retrograde in Taurus yet?

Did you check where the energy was falling within your chart?

If you didn’t yet get the chance to read my report, but are noticing delays, frustrations, communication issues or maybe bodily signs popping up in your life you may want to click here.

My personal experience has been one that I was kind of expecting. Remember I spoke about a possible impact of the body giving signals (see point 4 in the Mercury Retrograde Blog Post).

Well, lo and behold I’ve been sick this week. In fact, with Mercury transiting my 4th house (of home and family) my whole family has been sick.

With Mercury turning retrograde conjunct my South Node this is no surprise.

Do you know what the Nodes signify in your birth chart?

They’re one of the areas that I love most in Astrology and believe me, I love this subject to my core so that makes them pretty much up there.

In my own chart, I have the South Node in Taurus in my 4th house. The South Node can indicate our strengths during this lifetime, but to do too much of the South Node can lead to stagnation within our lives.

The challenge is to balance the Nodes and work with your strengths whilst also moving to the North Node, which will afford you growth.

The Nodes are always directly opposite to one another so my North Node falls in the opposite sign of Scorpio in my 10th house (of career/my status in the World).

I’ve had to learn to let go (Scorpio) during my life; a lot.

Taurus is a sign deeply rooted in security and safety. If you have a child whose South Node falls in Taurus they will likely come into this lifetime craving comfort. They need this in order to feel safe.

Add to this that my South Node falls in my 4th house and mix in a few other elements of my chart and you can understand how hard it was to get me out of the house as a child.

I was an indoors type of girl. I couldn’t deal with confrontation and, because I was also old for my age, I would often join my mum on outings with her charity group (The Lionesses) where I could often get to eat some of the home made wares. Taurus loves to eat!

I’ll be back to my latest illness shortly, but bare with me whilst we traverse the nodal axis as a way for me to convey to you why this Mercury retrograde triggered what it did in me 😉

Skip forward to my early twenties and I was off travelling the UK (where I was born) for various work projects; often taking me away from my home for the full week. I was quite blown away at the turn my life had taken, but I knew instinctively that to stay in the town in which I was raised was not the right path for me.

Note here that the tenth house in your chart represents your career 😉 Here, with my North Node in the 10th, I was letting go of my roots and moving further a-field.

I was raised in a small town in Derbyshire and I remember an ex work colleague of mine remarking how stunned he was that when I bought my first house I did so 9 miles away in the city of Nottingham. Leaving our home town was quite simply a no-go for many.

But, during all this time I was evolving. I was learning to be strong; to loosen the apron strings and to step into my own power (Scorpio).

Skip forward to my early thirties and I landed in Brisbane, Australia with my partner and our then two small children. It was time for my next stage of letting go.

We’ve been here over 10 years and now have 4 beautiful children. I wouldn’t say it’s always been easy, but it’s been amazing.

I miss my family and my childhood friends and I would love to see them all again and to connect with the little ones that have been born since we left. A part of me hopes and prays that they’ll all move out here at some point – well, you’ve got to ‘dream a dream’ 🙂

However, as far as soul growth goes myself and my other half know that we are in the right place.

In fact, I remember when the plane touched down and we disembarked the plane on that first day back in 2006; having never even visited Australia before, that I totally knew I was home. It was a strong feeling.

This is the gift in the North Node. It may not always be easy, but it certainly affords us growth.

Not only have I been called to let go of my family and childhood friends; in the sense of having them all close by, these past few years, but my food choices have played a strong part in my transformation also and this is where my latest illness comes into play (Yay! thank you for following me this far – we’re back here again).

Scorpio is a sign that offers much transformation if we are willing to do the work and with my Sun falling in the 8th house of my chart I have learnt much about the challenges of rebirth.

Over the past years I have let go of meat, fish, dairy, preservatives and chemicals as much as I can.

I clean my house with natural products using essential oils, silver, vinegar and bi-carbonate of soda.

At home, we eat organic mostly Vegan produce and cook from scratch. We did once attempt a veggie patch, which sadly didn’t work out, but thankfully, as my partner now at an organic wholesalers (that’s another magical story of abundance) we are blessed to provide wholesome food on a budget.

I have done various fasts, which have proved to have had the most profound effect on my health, my energy and my life.

This has all taken some effort and some new life skills, but it has been worth it. Waking up happy and energetic every day despite having a very restless toddler in bed all night is a godsend; especially when you have no back up to rely on, in a place thousands of miles away from grandparents and aunties and uncles.

Since having my latest child, however,  I have noticed that my health has started to dip again. My youngest will be two in July and since I fell pregnant with him I haven’t gone through a deep fasting process. It’s something I both fear and miss deeply.

I have had a strong knowing that I need to get back on the fasting train again along with a need to step up my exercise and as a result of me not doing so I have started to feel the odd twinge and the odd ailment popping up.

So, along comes Mercury, in his backwards motion, in the sign representative of the body and of the Earth (Taurus) and I fall ill.

With this particular Mercury retrograde conjunct my South Node it is an absolute crystal clear sign to me that there is something that I need to let go of.

So here I stand again. At the precipice of letting go. Am I happy about it? Hell No! My Ego is yelling all kinds of things at me. My mind and cravings are running a daily record of all the things that I’m going to miss, but my soul is sending me signals and I know that, that is important!

It may not feel comfortable (Taurus South Node 😉 ), but I know that to do this will transform me (Scorpio North Node) and my health (Sun in the 8th in Virgo) once again.

So, for what is all this fear arising in me? It seems that I have to let go of bread and to move to a more raw way of living as well as to find myself some Yoga (an exercise that helps me to feel connected to the Earth (Taurus again!).

I know that it’s do-able.

I know that the lines (that are getting more strongly etched) upon my face and the growing dark shadows under my eyes will thank me for it. See my blog post on Youthfulness for more on the face as the barometer of the body 😉

I know that by the end of it my whole being will be thankful, but for now I am battling the demons.

The ones who yell: “But you wont be able to eat nut paste on bread!!”, “What about muffins, Tamari on Toast, OMG!! No!!  You’re giving up Sandwiches?!”.

The illness has been a much-needed push. I’m now fasting until my body recovers and I am going to get back on the 80/20 raw train once this fast is over.

I recently did a 4 week raw challenge and I know that I have it in me.

I also know that butterflies can take a while to get out of that mushy cocoon.

So, I’m being gentle with myself. I’m letting go of perfection and instead, I am seeking progress.

There’s another angle to this retrograde, which is pretty in keeping with the New Moon post for this week; that of abundance.

Well, with Mercury on my Nodes it has to be quite a biggie!!

That story is for another day, however. I feel I’ve taken enough of your time for now.

I hope that you are faring well during this period and that you are remaining open to the signs that Mercury is bringing to you.

Remember, life’s nudges are not there to punish you (although it can often feel that way in the beginning).

Usually and put simply they are there to help you. To help you to live the best life that you can. So, you may want to take note of the current signs around you and to really listen to their meaning.

If you want to know more about your own chart as well as receiving more astrology and natural health information from me each week, you can opt in to my weekly newsletter here and receive a free copy of your chart along with a free Ebook on how to begin navigating it.

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With love, Toria xo






Mars Retrograde 2016 and an anecdote

Denial is pushing something out of your awareness. Anything you hide in the basement has a way of burrowing under the house and showing up on the front lawn.” – Howard Sasportas

This is one of my favourite quotes and it seems very apt right now, as joining Saturn in his retrograde motion we have Mars, who will be turning retrograde (seemingly moving backwards) this weekend.

Both planets are currently travelling through the sign of Sagittarius so what I am about to explain will affect the house(s) in your chart that are governed by the key Sagittarian degrees. More on this later..

In a minute, I’m going to tell you a story (how very Sagittarian) about a knight. This story is an attempt to convey the combined energy of these two planets travelling ‘seemingly backwards’ through Sagittarius.

Let’s set the energetic scene before we begin:

The Sun in our natal chart represents our innate vitality.

Mars, associated with The God of War, is what enables us to demonstrate that vitality outwards.

In short, Mars is all about ‘action’.

Mars retrogrades occur once every 2 years bringing us the opportunity for some internal contemplation  and to potentially uncover previously buried feelings that need to be acknowledged and released.

But to do this, we first have to slow down.

When Mars stations and turns retrograde we may suddenly feel as if something has suddenly stopped; be it a project, relationship or some other area of life; in Sagittarius this is probably related to where we are striving for growth.

Our motivation can appear to vanish and we may experience a loss of energy; potentially finding it hard to focus on what we were previously so enthusiastic about and feeling that its all just hard work.

Frustrations can occur around themes relative to the house where Mars is now travelling through within our personal natal charts.

Rather than see this time as a futile struggle, Mars and Saturn are calling for a reassessment.

If we listen to what is stirring; if we put in the effort at the key points within each cycle then we may just be able to align the foundations of our lives more accurately with our inner truth.

These retrogrades are not sent to delay us or frustrate us they are simply a nudge to put us on the right path, which may not have been the path upon which we were headed.

To ensure that we really do want to achieve the goals and ambitions that we think we do and to, potentially, show us other ways of getting there.

Here’s that story; a little anecdote if you like, to get the idea across to you.

Sir Sag (as in short for Sagittarius, not overweight and un-toned 😉 ) is standing looking out from the castle walls; surveying the landscape around him.

His mighty steed is being made ready down in the stables below, as Sir Sag is about to set off on a great journey.

As he looks at the surrounding hills and villages he wonders, with a glimmer of excitement (Sagittarians love an adventure), where this ‘journey’ will take him.

He pictures himself arriving battle-ready on the fields, joining his fellow knights in combat.

Strong and Steely; a hero.

A call comes up from the stable. The horse is ready.

Our hero sets off from the castle walls at a mighty pace with his Sagittarian boundless enthusiasm.

He travels for one whole day and half of the next night until finally (amazed at how awesome he is to have travelled so far in such a short space of time) he sits down for a rest.

The planet Saturn, currently retrograde in the sky, twinkles ever so slightly.

As he falls into a deep sleep he dreams of days of old. He dreams of the village where he grew up, of his parents and his siblings. He sees the green, rolling fields. He recalls the laughter, the sense of ease and the freedom of his youth.

He wakes feeling nostalgic and starving. For our Sagittarian Knight has a voracious appetite.

As his horse is drinking from a river close by, he sits down with his huge bowl of breakfast to contemplate the next phase of his journey.

He looks around him and can’t quite shake off that dream. A part of him wishes that things were different.

When his father died he took on the role of the family wage-earner. His mother was so proud when he announced he was going to ‘knight-school’ (I know, but hey, it’s funny 😉 ).

He’d graduated. He’d worked his way up and he’d done very well for himself. He had maidens waiting on the sound of his horse hoofs in every village and town and he’d travelled lots.

But, this wasn’t quite what he’d envisaged as a child.

He had loved his life to date.

Let’s face it, which knight wouldn’t love that kind of life, but he wanted more.

He wanted a family to adventure with. A wife equally as spontaneous as he and, although fighting was all very manly, he was a little bored of it.

He just wasn’t cut out for it. Not like Sir Aries seemed to be (Aries is the sign ruled by Mars – The God of War).

He had so much wisdom to share! He had dreams of teaching horse-riding skills; perhaps to apprentice knights.

Sir Sag takes a deep breath and as he does so, Mars, just turned retrograde, twinkles; ever so slightly.

He looks up at the sky (he navigates by the stars) intending to plan the next leg of his journey and suddenly, it hits him.

The full trip should have taken a whole day and 8 hours

He should have been there by now! Why is he not there? Where the blazers is he?!

Now he’s frustrated. In fact, he’s angry!

Why did his father have to die?! Why did his mother not discourage him and let him stay with her?! Where was his lost childhood?!

Why did he now have to travel another 300 miles to fight a battle that had nothing to do with him and that was just going to bore the armour off of him?

We’ll leave our knight here for now and catch up with him later in the cycle.

Lets now look at how Mars Retrograde may have an effect on you:

Mars retrograde motion usually asks that we slow down and we may find that external events or our own internal energy will push us to do this.

With Mars and Saturn currently retrograde in the sign of Sagittarius this will be a great time to ask whether what we ‘do’ is actually what we want to do.

Are we acting in our own best interests; aligned with the truth of who we are, or are we doing things from a place of fear and ‘shoulds’? Do we feel that we are free to be ourselves and to assert for what we want?

If we have been previously afraid to stand up for our beliefs or to express the truth of who we are we may now find that we are connecting with some resentment.

We may suddenly start to think over old hurts; realising that what we thought we were over or had dealt with, we had simply suppressed.

This can often be related to unresolved conflicts with others and it can take us by surprise; especially if we’re suddenly connecting with emotions related to old situations that we believed were in the past.

By bringing the, previously suppressed, energy into consciousness Mars retrograde gifts us the chance to acknowledge and to feel it.

From this space we can then make steps to heal whatever it is; perhaps by taking the appropriate Bush Flower Essence, seeing a counsellor or  through some other healing modality that we resonate with.

Sitting in nature and journaling can be a simple, yet powerful way to acknowledge our inner pain.

Often by giving acknowledgement to our ‘sore spots’ we give them a voice and allow them to be released. By bringing these potentially darker feelings out into the light we often realise that they aren’t such bad feelings after all and if we confide in a friend we may even find that they too have experienced such emotions.

When we deny certain aspects of our nature; often unconsciously, we tend to see it reflected back at us by others.

For example, if a child is constantly told that they must do for others and that doing anything for themselves is selfish then that child may grow into an adult who is prone to burn out.

Constantly helping others and feeling a nagging guilt about the deep need for personal nourishment that is screaming inside them.

The adult that this child becomes could then be prone to illness and may even experience an emotional breakdown if they allow such a behaviour pattern to run their life.

When we are able to acknowledge our sore spots and work through them we end up freeing the energy that was previously being used to keep what we may have deemed ‘selfish’ or ‘not nice’ locked away.

This freeing of energy can enable us to move forward unencumbered with renewed enthusiasm, but often we must first confront some potentially darker emotions; such as resentment, rage or frustration.

Mars stations-retrograde (April 17th at 10:14pm here in Brisbane (AEST)), (01:14pm in England (BST (GMT-1)))

Mars will traverse, seemingly backwards, between 8 degrees and 54 seconds of Sagittarius and 23 degrees and 3 seconds of Scorpio between 17th April and 29th June this year.

Anyone with planets between 23 to 30 degrees of Scorpio and 0 to 8 degrees of Sagittarius is likely to be strongly affected by this retrograde.

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